waiting for grades

Probably one of the worst things in the world is waiting for grades to be posted at the end of the semester. I never worried about my grades in high school, but now I'm paranoid about them. I've been biting my nails waiting for my grades to be completed so I can send a transcript to MU. There's been a long period of time that I've spent screwing around and not doing what I should to get ahead in life, so this was my first step to getting myself back together. Apply for MU and pray for admission.
I've been studying at LU for a year and a half. I knew that I would eventually transfer though I wasn't sure when or where. So when I met Marie I was really excited to hear about a school she goes to, Cornish College of the Arts, in Seattle WA. Cornish has an acceptance rate of 30%. I was so excited that I rushed to get my application and audition sent in. I was accepted, but I hadn't really paid much attention to how much it would cost and figured that I could get enough financial aid to cover it. I was $10,000 short and that wasn't including room and bored. I wasted $50 applying to a school that I couldn't afford.
I started looking for other schools that I could apply for that had great music programs. I didn't really think I would be interested in MU, but my teacher had suggested it. Usually teachers are supposed to try and keep students at the school, but she knew that I wasn't happy. I had expressed my concern enough times each year and she knew that there wasn't much that LU could offer me. Being hesitant, I went again to look for the best music schools in the country.While scrolling down I saw MU pop up on my screen, it just so happened to be in the top 100. Something finally clicked inside me and said "Okay, Cassy. Time to stop pissing around and do something with your life already!"
I went for an audition at MU first because I wasn't sure what to expect. I was feeling so nervous about it that I didn't even bother to apply to MU before the audition. I didn't see the point in applying if they didn't like me. I introduced myself, sang my songs, and lastly answered some questions. They asked my how old I was, what semester I was, how many years I had been studying voice, etc. Finally they asked me if I had filled out an application yet. I told them that I hadn't. They all looked at me in confusion and asked me why I didn't fill one out. I said "I didn't know if you guys would like me, or want to take me." An enourmous roar of laughter spread throughout the room. Then one of the professors said "You need to make sure you put your application in soon so we can find you some scholarship money." I was a bit confused at first and then realized what they were telling me.
So here I am waiting for my grades to be posted so I can turn in my transcripts to MU. There's really not much I can do other than to wait. So yeah. *sigh*